I had a realization last night;
It's kind of sad. After an attempt to set up a senior sleepover at my house, we ended up at 410 with only two of us sleeping over. I honestly felt like no one wanted to be there. We sat around and watched two movies; No one asked about what each other were up too, even how each other are doing. It is like we know each other so well, that we are uninterested in each other and almost dislike each other. I was excited for this sleepover because I had set it up and I really wanted to catch up with my friends. Apparently no one else was into it. I was disappointed and then I realized that I shouldn't be. Despite the fact, that since freshmen year, these people have given me crap about being conservative and not drinking etc., I have tried my best to be their friend.
I guess my realization is that I don't have to be friends with any of them anymore, unless I want too. We used to be teammates; now we aren't. In fact we really don't have much in common. It almost felt like six strangers sitting around a TV last night. I don't know why they are uninterested, but I know I'm going to stop feeling guilty about it. I'm not saying, "I don't need them, or even that I don't want to be friends with them anymore." I just...am not going to feel guilty about the status of our friendship.
I don't think I'm getting my point across very well.
O well.
