I need a hug.
I'm not sure why. Mostly, I just need to feel loved. There are two bad things about this feeling:
1. I won't do anything about it. I'll sit here and blog instead.
2. I feel guilty that I need/want a hug.
I take way to much pride in my ability to be self-sufficient. I have always struggled at asking for help, and apparently receiving a hug when I need one, represents that I can't do everything myself.
Anyways, changing the subject.
I officially am skipping as second week of school for the Pay it Forward tour. I'm on the bus that Jenny is leading and am really excited to spend some time with her. It makes me nervous to take that much money out of my down payment savings. However, it's for such a good cause that I feel like God will make it up too me. It's not like I'm just blowing the money on something really materialistic, it's for charity!!! Aghhh. It just makes me really nervous.
Moving on, I am having a spring break sleepover. My parents just don't know about it yet. I already told everyone they could come over on Monday night. Ooops. I just am waiting for the "right" moment to ask them. They didn't seem to happy that I texted them at 1:30am yesterday to tell them I was sleeping on campus. It is just a frustrating situation. I feel like they don't trust me, my mom asked if, "I was as drunk as a skunk." And they think I'm being very inconsiderate if I don't call and check in. I just wish that they would trust me more. It is really the only downfall to living at home. They live is such a bubble, I feel like they have no idea how "conservative" of a kid I am.
grrrr.
